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April Fools!!!

2010-03-31T22:19:00.003-05:00

Thank goodness the month of March is finally over. It was a really long month, especially at work. New month, fresh start! And we all definitely deserve a fresh start every once in a while.

Plus, if April continues to be as nice as March was, it's going to be a fantastic month for spending time outside. I was looking at some old posts and I wrote last year around this time about an ice/snow storm. This year, all we have is sun and the typical wind. Yay! Chi-chi loves going for walks too, so that's good motivation to actually get outside and do something.

Anyway, I guess there's not much to say tonight. I was told that I should write more, so here I am. I'll work on it, maybe have something useful to say next time. Until then...

Blue October - Jump Rope

2010-03-30T20:55:00.003-05:00

Remember how you used to say,
You could'nt wait for tomorrow for a brand new day and,
No fuss when you had to ride the bus,
You'd just add a little blush,
To paralyze your school crush.
Now you're older and the weight is on your shoulder,
make the world a little colder no more hidin' in the old day.
Be strong, don't you give up hope.
It will get hard,
Life's like a jump rope!

Up, down, up, down, up, down, up, down
Yeah.. Cause' it will get hard, remember
Lifes like a jump rope
Up, down, up, down, up, down, up, down
Yeah.. It will get hard, Cause it will get hard.

There'll be a bump and there will be a bruise,
There'll be alarms and there will be a snooze,
There'll be a path that you will have to choose,
There'll be a win and there will be a lose and,
You gotta hold your head up high and,
watch, all the negative ago by,
Don't ever be ashamed to cry,
You go ahead! Cause life's like a jump rope!

CHORUS
Up, down, up, down, up, down, up, down
Yeah.. It will get hard, remember
Life's like a jump rope
Up, down, up, down, up, down, up, down
Yeah..
It will get hard... C'mon!

I wanna tell you that everything will be okay,
That everything will eventually turn itself,
To gold..
So keep pushing through it all,
Don't follow lead the way,
Don't lose yourself, or your hope,
Cause life's like a jump rope!

You stomp your feet so hard you make it pound,
Raise it back up to the top and now were never comin' down
Up down,
Stomp your feet, spin around, clap hands to the rhythm,
And ya, slip down.
Stomp your feet so hard you make it pound,
Raise it back up to the top and now were never coming down!

Up, down, up, down, up, down, up, down
Yeah.. It will get hard remember,
Life's like a jump rope
Up, down, up, down, up, down, up, down
Yeah.. It will get hard,
Cause' it will get hard!

Life's like a jump rope
Up, down, up, down, up, down, up down
Yeah...
Whoa... Cause Life's like a jump rope

Mood Swing Haiku

2010-03-21T21:59:00.003-05:00

I would like to be

a sane person just for you.

Too bad I'm crazy.

Holy Moly!

2010-02-02T20:07:00.003-06:00

It's been practically forever and a day since I've been here! I make a habit of checking the blogs that I like to read, but I suppose I should check my own every once in a while. Such is life.

Speaking of which, gosh it's kinda sucky, huh? I find myself asking, "When exactly is it that I will be grown up and everything will stop being so difficult?" Well, I think, kids, that the answer is that it doesn't get easier as you grow up, as a matter of fact I believe (ready for this??) that it just keeps getting harder and harder. Now I wouldn't want anyone to think that I am sitting here having a pity party for myself, woe is me, woe is me, blah blah. No, actually, I know that I am pretty lucky. I have an amazing husband, my best friend, whom I love; he loves me and would give me the world if he had it to give. I'm surrounded by friends that are lovely and remind me to just keep swimming, even if I don't see or talk to them very often. I have a job, albeit a job that most days SUCKS MAJOR BALLS. But it pays the bills and I even have a little left over to save...save early, save often kiddos!!!

What I've realized is that even with all of these things working FOR me, the universe in all of it's wonderous ways seems to work against me. It brings to mind those age-old Paula Abdule lyrics "I take two steps forward and two steps back..." I digress...

As you get older, there are so many more expectations and I've never been all that keen on living up to other peoples great expectations of me. Buy a house, have kids, make more money, get a better job, buy a bigger house, have more kids, make more money...It seems like I've been so worried about what other people want out of me, I forgot to ask myself. What do I want to be when I grow up? I have no freaking idea. You would think that after going to school since 5 years of age, I would have a better answer to this questions, but unfortunately I've always been indecisive and that streak seems to manifest itself into every facet of my life. I always knew someday that my indecisiveness would be my downfall, my own Achille's heel. It's tough to live up to someone else's expecations when I don't really have any expecations for myself. I guess that's as good a place to start as any. So I guess that's what I had to say today. Don't forget to reevaluate every once in a while, I know I forget sometimes, so just a friendly reminder.

2009-11-20T21:15:00.001-06:00

If we can get through this together, we can get through anything together.

Is anyone alive out there!?!?

2009-09-30T18:12:00.002-05:00

So I know I haven't posted anything here in a long time, but I didn't think anyone was still there! (HI JULIE!!) Nothing too exciting here in Aberdeen, as usual. As of now, I'm just an old married woman. I'm gonna be 24 this year...in like 25 days. That's practically ancient. I'm so old it's depressing. Now all I have to look forward to is 30. Ew. Don't ask about kids, it's not gonna happen for a couple of years now. We're just trying to pay off some stuff and maybe have a house before we start on the whole family thing.

At work I got a promotion...that's pretty exciting I guess. I'm now a lead teller which really doesn't mean much except for now people ask me lots of questions and I get paid more. Woohoo :)

I've been working on my first major knitting project. Yes, I know, I really am an old person. I'm making a blanket and if I actually put my mind to it I could probably finish it in a few weeks, but at the rate I'm going I'll be lucky if it's done by the end of winter. When I'm done I'll post a picture! I'm really proud of it so far, even if I'm only a fifth of the way done!

Well I guess I had more to say than I thought I did. Isn't that how it usually goes though?

Long time...

2009-07-13T21:33:00.002-05:00

It's been so long, I don't even know what to write!! I don't even know if anyone reads this anymore. It's ok if they don't though...I'll still write every three to four months. I'm thinking about getting a new tattoo, but I have no idea what to get or more importantly, where to get it. That's pretty much it, any ideas just holla. Ok I'm done.

Snow Daze.

2009-04-07T17:10:00.004-05:00

I'm so tired of winter. All the snow was gone, I thought it was safe to put my winter jackets away...I thought wrong. May 31st rolls around and Mother Nature decides to pull a fast one on us and drop about a foot of snow over about 4 hours. Tuesday most of the town was shut down and we had a power outage for about an hour; on Wednesday we were without power from around 7:00am until 11:30, just in time for lunch! Apparently there was a piece of equipment under the James River (you heard about the flooding from the week before, right?) so they had to get a barge up the river to repair what they thought they had already fixed the day before. If you ever think to yourself, hey I really want to move to South Dakota or I sure do love snow, just remember this:

Frickin April in South Dakota.

Bling bling.

2009-01-25T20:33:00.002-06:00

So I just bought Christopher's ring. It's not like it should have been a big deal but it was a hard choice. He's gonna have to wear it every day for the rest of his life after all!! But it's weird...and more real than a lot of other purchases we've made so far during this process. Anyway, that's it for now.

Time and Again.

2009-01-13T15:23:00.003-06:00

With the start of another new year comes the challenges of starting all over. New snow, new semester, new start. 2008 was filled with as many ups as downs, rights as wrongs. People we love hurt us and it's hard to forget that. But we've taken those hurts and made ourselves stronger because of them whether we know it or not.
One year ago today I never thought I'd be where I am. Some parts of my life are set in stone, others in complete limbo. With time and love we'll make it through yet another tumultuous year and come out the other end stronger, better, happier, smarter, wiser and all the more in love with our lives and the people in them.

I don't know if that makes any sense to anyone but me, but I just thought I'd put that out there.
Happy 2009.

PARTY.

2008-12-13T16:16:00.002-06:00

Ok, now that we've asked everyone, here's our bridal party!

The Ladies
Kelley Flahaven
Jamie Milbrandt
Tiffany Rinkenberger (Chris's sister)
Elycia Matushin
Jamie Beckius (a good friend from work)

The Gents
Jesse Milbrandt
Tyson Rinkenberger (Chris's bro-ha)
Shane Sitter (mon frere)
Adam Zeller (awesome friend)
Darrin Beckius (also an awesome friend and Jamie's husband)

I think that's all there is to report! Also, invitations suck. I'm thinking we're just going to spread the news by word of mouth. We'll see how well that goes over...

Stuffed...

2008-11-27T15:39:00.002-06:00

It's been entirely too long since I've written here. I don't even know if people check this thing anymore, but I'm going to pretend that you do because it makes me feel loved.

Wedding:
Not really anything new to report. I've gone out and picked out some dresses, now my bridesmaids get to pick which one they want to wear. Plus, I'm a procrastinator and just recently asked a couple of them if they'd like to be in the wedding so I'm waiting to hear back on that. Oops. But it's in typical Kyssa fashion, if I didn't put it off, it obviously wasn't that important. Also, you know what's really annoying? Invitations. Seriously way too much work. Actually a lot of things that you do while planning a wedding are way too much work. And a lot of it, I don't even care about. Like centerpieces. Who cares? And favors. Who cares?? Not I, that's who. Oh well, I know it'll all be worth it in the end. Blah blah blah...

In other news, there is no other news. School is school. I work too much (remember that wedding I have to pay for??) That's about it. Interesting post, huh?

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!! I'm thankful that I still have you guys around, even if you're not literally around.........You know what I mean. Love ya!!!!

What a Tease...

2008-10-08T15:40:00.007-05:00

Sorry about that last post. I'm not really sure why I'm the only one who can see the pictures. Let's give this another try :)

The Place:

The Party Place:

The Dresses:

For some stupid reason this website won't let me steal their pictures. How DARE they. But here's a link to the dress (remember, it'll be champagne with a black ribbon rather than that weird taupe, and the champagne actually looks darker than the picture leads you to believe)http://www.billlevkoff.com/collections/index.asp?dress=876

And the Ring!:

Again, it doesn't look exactly like this, the channel set diamonds are princess cut on my ring. My band doen't have the three larger stones either, it's just channel set princess diamonds all along the front. But this is the closest thing I could find, so live with it :)

To have and to hold

2008-09-27T14:51:00.004-05:00

So here it is: The wedding post. This is a comprehensive update of everything we have done so far.

The Place:

This is the church, Good Shepherd. It's the one up by Roncolli high school.

The Party:

The reception will be at the AmericInn. If you need a hotel room, we have a block of rooms reserved for the Sitter/Rinkenberger wedding. This is a picture of the room we have. We're having a buffet style dinner and there will be a bar and maybe a keg. But if you want to get drunk you're paying for it yourself because we're poor and can't afford to buy drinks for 200 of our closest friends.

The Colors and Flowers:

We're keepin it simple people. Champagne and black, with pink flowers. And you'll like it. Or else. I honestly don't care what kind of flowers we have, just as long as they're pink and beautiful.

The Wedding Party:

Well, we're thinking Chris and I will be there. Other than that I can't tell you a whole lot because I'm a procrastinator and still haven't asked everyone I want to. Oops. I think this is the bridesmaids dress though, if they all like it anyway. But it who knows. It'll be champagne with a black ribbon around the waist. And I found my dress too, but obviously you can't see that yet...I know, the suspense is killing you. :)

And last but not least...

The Ring:

It's not exactly the same as this one...The channel set diamonds are princess cut on my ring, whereas these are round!

All Growed Up!

2008-08-07T12:01:00.002-05:00

So remember last time, when I said that I didn't really have anything to post about? Well, this time I totally do!! Chris proposed to me and I reluctantly agreed. :)

I know E at least wanted to hear the story so here it goes: We went camping out at Roy Lake and one night we were sitting around the campfire (because that's what you do when you go camping) and all of a sudden he decided we needed some more wood on the fire, then he dropped down on one knee and asked if I would marry him. I seriously totally and completely thought it was a joke! I don't think I even said yes until a good 10 minutes later. Anyway, we're really excited and hopefully you'll all be able to come for the wedding. The date is May 16, 2009, so clear your calendars people!!!

And now for the most important part...the ring. He's a giant turd and has actually had the freaking thing since like last October. And, to make it even worse, every one else knew but me. His parents, my parents and a bunch of friends here in town knew. I totally got played. But I suppose I'm ok with that :) It's a beautiful ring though, and if I had to pick out my own engagement ring, I totally would have picked this one.

So overall, it's bee a pretty good summer.

Whoa...

2008-07-11T19:06:00.003-05:00

I know it's been a while since I've done this, forgive me if I'm rusty!

There's just not a whole heck of a lot to say. Although there is one bit of juicy news that you might find interesting. For all the fans of my poor little Oldsmobile, it's time you say your goodbyes. I'd like to introduce you to Scooter. Now I know what you're thinking, "man she is so cool, she took her car for a sweet photo shoot in the forest!!" Well, sorry to disappoint you but I actually found this picture online. I guess I need to amp up the cool in my life or something.

Anyway, it's a cute little car that's just right for me, and it really does just scoot along. Yay me!!

2008-03-04T19:31:00.002-06:00

So there's this girl. She's the most annoying girl ever to walk the face of the earth. We have a class together and, lucky me, we're in the same group for the ongoing project (a service learning project, don't ask it'll take forever to explain). Anyway, she wants to be in charge of absolutely everything! And that wouldn't be half bad, except for the fact that everything she does is completely half-assed. She came to class with a sample poster she thought we could use and the poster pretty much looked like this:

Talking talking talking

blah blah

words too many words

when is it over blah

here I go again with the talking

Time

Date

Place

blaaaaaaaaaah

Clip art clip art

Fancy huh? If she really wants to be in charge of everything, she's going to have to work a little harder than that. This stupid project is based around working as a group and doing something good for the community and it's going to make us all look like idiots if she doesn't listen to what we're trying to tell her. Ok, I'm done.

Kids These Days

2008-02-20T17:43:00.002-06:00

I love Wednesdays. Wednesday is my day. I get done with work at 1:30, done with class at 3:15 and the rest of the day is all mine. Today I had some things I needed to pick up at Target and I love Target so that was all fine and good. One of my coworkers told me that she found some really great deals at Herbergers last night so of course I had to go check it out for myself. I only found one thing that I really liked and it was 65% off so I figured I could treat myself. So I'm in line waiting to pay for my shirt and the lady who was working was very nice to the older lady she was waiting on; she talked to her, complimented her selections, basically all the things a good salesperson does. From the interaction it didn't seem like the two women knew each other, which made the next part so much more frustrating. Now it's my turn in line. I greet the sales lady and all I get is a cold "hi." The only thing she said to me was the total, she didn't once look up at me and I was the one who told her to have a good day. It makes me so angry when people treat me like that for no reason. I guess I can't speak for her, but it seems like the only reason she acted like that was because I'm young. I can't help my age. I would like to think that I am a responsible, polite young adult. I work almost 40 hours a week and go to school. What is so wrong with that? I was in no way rude to her and it just made me so mad that she was so rude and it's not the first, and probably won't be the last time, that this has happened. I just had to get that out there...

On a happier note (literally...haha) I bought the Juno soundtrack today. I haven't bought a cd in a really long time but I'm really glad I got this one. It's lighthearted, fun and overall really good. I'd recommend it to almost anyone. Unless you're into heavy metal, evil and overall bad music. No offense.

Technical Difficulties

2008-02-14T13:20:00.003-06:00

So I erased the links on my sidebar. This is a place that I can go to and tell you my secrets and my stupid thoughts and things the rest of the world would think I was crazy for, and I know other people feel the same way. I wouldn't want my blog to be exposed to certain people so I figured taking the links off would make it harder for people to find your secrets. Besides, I have you all in my favorites, so it's not like I really needed the links anyway. Just thought I'd let you know so you didn't think I decided that I don't like to read your blogs. Anyway...blah blah blah.

Quite Honestly....

2008-02-11T16:16:00.000-06:00

It is butt ass cold.

Now some of you may be asking yourselves, what exactly is butt ass cold? It's when you can't feel your nose walking from your car to the classroom. It's that exact temperature that causes your car to think twice about actually starting. The wind blows your hair around so much that by the time you get into work people are wondering if you took the time to shower that morning. Oh, did I mention the build-up of ice on the crappy windows in the apartment? Do you have that too??!?!! The fat on your thighs and ass freezes faster than the bottle of water you dropped while scurrying from the building to the garage. Maybe I took that one a bit far...

I just had to put that out there.

It's always something...

2008-01-29T08:08:00.000-06:00

I have been sick all year so far. First it was a stomach flu. Then I got a really bad cold. Now the stomach thing is back. I'm so sick of being sick! Damn it.

EDIT:
So it's Thursday now and I'm feeling much better. Just thought I'd let you all know. Sometimes a girl has just got to complain to get something done.

Oops

2008-01-28T14:25:00.000-06:00

Holy crap, it's been a long time since I've written on this thing. I always check blogs and get sad when they're not updated, then realized maybe I should update my own more often. It's hard to write when there's nothing to write about though!
I saw the movie Juno, and it was so good! It was kinda weird, and a little sad but over all REALLY good, I would recommend it to anyone.
We also saw Stardust. It's got Gwenneth Paltrow and a bunch of other people in it that I didn't know. That was a really good movie too, kinda weird though. I don't think it's a movie for everyone, but if you like fairy tails and happy endings, it's a good one.
Oh, also, I've been reading The Princess Bride. Not the full version, but the abridged version. It's hard though because I've seen the movie so many times and there are things in the book that are different from the movie, as there usually are. It just doesn't seem like I have a lot of time to read, especially now that school's starting again.
Speaking of school...Ugh. I have a class that we have to have class periods online in a chatroom forum type thingy-majig. That's actually what I'm doing right now. And as you can tell I'm getting a lot out of it. Oh well. Hopefully we won't have too many classes like this, it's annoying.
Well, I think that's all I have to say for now, so I think I'll close with a picture of my cute kitties, just because I can. :)

Auld Lang Syne

2007-12-31T22:55:00.000-06:00

So it's almost 2008. I'm not doing anything special tonight, as a matter of fact I spent the evening with my mom. I'm not getting drunk, I'm not with a huge group of people, Chris is sleeping. I've never been a big fan of celebrating New Year's Eve, but it's always kind of fun to think about the past year.
I started a new job that I was extremely nervous about, but now I love it and hope I can stay for a while longer.
I spent another year with Chris and couldn't be happier. I couldn't ask for a better friend and I love him with all of my little Kyssa heart :)
We moved into a new apartment and got another kitty named Tonks. We're pretty happy with the apartment, but have been keeping our eyes on houses in town just in case something amazing turns up.
I got my nose pierced and my first tattoo practically in the same month. Pretty bad ass, I know.
I started school again this fall and even though it was a lot of work getting back into a school schedule again, I made it through alive. And with any luck I'll graduate before I'm 30.
My mom was remarried and I've never seen her this happy.
Basically 2007 was a great year. Maybe while it was happening it didn't seem very good, but in retrospect it was darn fantastic.

Now on to 2008. I don't usually make resolutions because I think it's stupid. I never keep them and to me it's just another thing to fail at, but I just recently decided to give it a go. This year I'm going to start doing yoga. My freshman and sophomore years of college I did yoga every once in a while with a close friend and I always felt more relaxed, well rested and healthier. I'm not going to say I'm going to do it every day, I'm not going to say I'm going to do it for 30 minutes, I'm just going to try to make it a habit. Doesn't sound too difficult does it? Wish me luck! And good luck with your resolutions :)

Happy New Year!!

The Doldrums of Winter.

2007-12-29T10:08:00.000-06:00

It's cold, it's gloomy, everyone is sick, I do believe we're in the doldrums. Christmas came and went. It never even seemed much like Christmas. I had to have so many different "celebrations" and my family had to argue over who had us kids when and why and where. The only good part this week was going up to Chris's hometown. His family is just so fun and relaxed and it was so easy to sit back and have a good time. Part of me wishes that I could have spent the whole time up with them, but I don't think my family would have liked that too much on such short notice. Anyway, I'm glad it's over. Now I'm looking forward to New Year's...I have two days off and get to babysit for a friend and hopefully return from my trip to the doldrums.

Next Stop, Happily Ever After

2007-12-10T10:54:00.000-06:00

Howdy Y'all

2007-11-17T17:36:00.000-06:00

I'm bored. I have a boring life. Last night I made muffins. They were delicious though so that was good. This semester is wrapping up FINALLY. I hate being back in school. I just have no motivation because I feel like I'm never going to graduate. Oh well...That's how you're supposed to feel right?
Also I'm a giant loser and bought a Nintendo DS. It's awesome. I'm a nerd.

So yeah...

2007-10-16T20:11:00.000-05:00

I know it's been a while since I've actually written something so I figured I'd better get on that.
My computer died. I turned it on one day and it was just dead. So I reinstalled Windows and now it kinda works, but I don't have the disc that has all the drivers I need so I can't really do anything without that. It's a sad sad thing.
Work is going ok. It's a lot of sales crap which I don't really like that much, but I really like meeting new people every day and seeing regular customers and helping them out. And I guess the sales thing is ok when it really benefits them but when it's just so we can get the sales it makes me mad.
School is ok too I guess. It's so hard to get back into it. My day classes are just fine...I'm used to being up and doing stuff then anyway so it's not really that big of a deal. It's that damn night class that kills me. I really like the class I just have no motivation to go. I don't think my prof really cares just as long as I get the work done. I just feel bad when I don't go. I really love my history class which is weird because I didn't think I'd like the prof at all. He's really right wing, holier than thou, but even though it comes out in lecture sometime it doesn't really detract from the lecture. Anyway...
Chris started working at JDC again. I don't really care that much since I'm busy with classes and stuff, and he really loves working there. He's weird. We might get to go to California with my grandparents this summer, I just have to motivate myself to save the money. That was random.
Well, I can't think of anything else to say, so I think I'm done. Alright...

Stroll in the Lot

2007-10-03T22:11:00.000-05:00

We all know that nobody in Aberdeen can park, now people are putting videos on YouTube about it. Great....

Change Your Status

2007-10-02T18:20:00.000-05:00

Kyssa is tired.
Kyssa is happy.
Kyssa is sitting, waiting, wishing you believed in superstition.
Kyssa is wanting her baby back ribs....Barbecue sauce.
Kyssa is loving Scrubs.
Kyssa is procrastinating.

An apple a day...

2007-09-19T20:03:00.000-05:00

Ok, so this is going to be a pretty random post. I guess that's what happens when I'm supposed to be doing homework in a computer lab though. That dastardly internet gets me every time. Speaking of being in a computer lab: I am so in love with this computer. It's a Mac and it's awesome. I want one of my very own. If only I could afford it. Boo on being broke. Anyway. I'm supposed to be designing a web page about me, so what better to do than blog about it!?! This class is such a waste of time. We sit here for 2 1/2 hours poking along and when I do the projects on my own it takes about 45 minutes at most. Not saying that I'm a genius or anything, it's just really basic stuff, plus the program we're using makes it really easy. Anyway...If you made it all the way through that, mad props yo. Basically I just wanted to tell you all that I want an Apple. It's so cute. The end.

Tough Chick.

2007-09-05T19:38:00.000-05:00

First day of class and I'm so ready for this. Bring it on bitch.

2007-08-29T22:10:00.000-05:00

Let's just start this post off with a warning: I'm about to complain. Maybe a lot. Maybe a little. But just so you know, I'm gonna do it.
I am so tired. I haven't had a real day off from work in weeks. Everyday I have off we have stupid meetings at 8 in the morning so how am I really supposed to get any rest? I'm stressed out because school is starting. At the bank I was hired to work 30 hours once school started, but we got our schedule for the second week of class and guess how many hours I have to work?? 40. If I could use caps lock on numbers, I totally would. Class from 9 til 11:50, work from noon til 6 on MWF and work from 8:30 til 6 and class from 6:30 til 9 TTh. Holy crap. And I still have my job at Payless but that's really my own fault because I just can't bring myself to quit. I'm just so overwhelmed and classes haven't even started. I don't know how I'm gonna do it.

2007-08-24T08:56:00.000-05:00

It's Friday. I don't have to work until 2. Yet I was wide awake at 8. Now I'm watching Nacho Libre for a lack of anything better to do. It's really weird. And I'm hungry. Pancakes perhaps? We'll see...

Just for pretend...

2007-08-15T12:50:00.000-05:00

Holy crap it's been almost 2 weeks since I was here last! I hope you didn't miss me too much. Er something. I've been too busy playing house around here. We finally got our living room furniture today and it's beautiful. We probably spent way too much money, but oh well. It's pretty. And I have to register for classes this week. Boooo. I really don't want to go back to school, but I just have to get it over with I guess. For now though I'm going to enjoy my last few weeks of pretending to be an adult with a real apartment and a real job and real furniture.

WOOT.

2007-08-01T22:43:00.000-05:00

So we broke into our apartment tonight. Well...Not really. It was open, but we don't have keys yet but it's technically ours because we paid for it. And we have our cable set up and our furniture is being delivered on Monday and we're going to start moving in on Saturday. I couldn't be more excited. YAY!

I dare you to watch the whole thing...

2007-07-29T11:11:00.000-05:00

Welp...

2007-07-25T12:15:00.000-05:00

Um...Hello? Anyone there? I miss you guys.

Love Thursday...

2007-07-19T21:14:00.001-05:00

Yup...Feeling the love.

I never knew love could be so caffinated...

2007-07-18T19:36:00.000-05:00

Rar.

2007-07-17T08:19:00.000-05:00

This week could not possibly go fast enough.

Moving Up!

2007-07-06T21:44:00.000-05:00

I'm moving!!! Yay!!!! Chris and I finally found an apartment! It's so cute...Maybe a little on the old lady side, but it's going to be absolutely perfect! It's got two bedrooms and a nice size bathroom and some awesome green appliances. But we're ok with the green because we figured it's a step up from the yellow we have now. We get to move in the second week of August and I can't wait!!!! I'm so excited!!
OH!!! Jamie and Jesse finally found a house too! I'm so happy for them...They've been trying for a long time and nothing really panned out, but now they're buying the most adorable little house and it's totally perfect for them. So yeah...That's my news.
Also, my new job is going pretty well. It's a lot different from Payless, but it's really good. I like my coworkers and all, which is good I guess.......
But I think that's it......Pictures will be coming ASAP!!!!!!

Window Shopping.

2007-07-01T17:27:00.000-05:00

So today Chris and I bought furniture. A lot of furniture. Like a bedroom set, mattress set and a love seat and sofa.

We left this afternoon with the intentions of "just looking" and ended up spending SO MUCH MONEY. But not really because we found some great deals and got the furniture we really wanted. I'm so excited!!!!

Oh no you didn't....

2007-06-30T17:27:00.000-05:00

Unacceptable. Completely and totally unacceptable. And you know it.

2007-06-19T12:10:00.000-05:00

So I've been meaning to write something for a while now, but I really don't have a lot to talk about. I started my new job with the mob and so far it's not too bad. I'm doing a ton of training so I pretty much sit in front of a computer all day and answer easy questions. Then next week I have to go to Rapid City for a class so that should be fun. Or something. But yesterday I actually got to have my own window and do transactions and that was fun, but really really scary. Other than that I'm freakin exhausted because I've been waking up at 7 or 7:30 every day since I started there and my body is just not used to it yet. Maybe I'll take a nap when I get off work....

Anyway. Just thought I'd let you know. Maybe I'll think of something better to write later but for now I'm going to enjoy the rest of my lunch break.

YAY!

2007-06-02T23:34:00.000-05:00

I am so bad ass. With my flower tattoo...

And now it's time to see who's having the BEST DAY EVER!!!

2007-05-31T09:52:00.000-05:00

AHHH!!!!! IT'S ME IT'S ME AND IT'S ONLY 10 AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I'm getting my tattoo today and I'm so excited! No worries, I'll post a picture as soon as I can. AND. I had a JOB INTERVIEW on Thursday to work for the mob. (Special prize for whoever guesses WHERE!!! Also, Jamie and Kelley don't qualify because they know already.) And this morning the lady called and offered it to me! AND I'll be making $2.50 more than I make right now! Holy mother of pay raise! I'm so excited! I think this is just what I needed right now. Yay!

2007-05-16T10:07:00.000-05:00

So it seems as though plans may have changed again. After the Rad Tech pinning ceremony (a two and a half hour long event in which many inside jokes were exchanged and much awkwardness ensued all with the goal of literally giving each student a pin and saying their oath of Radiology-ic-ness-es) Chris's boss at the hospital came up and pretty much offered him a job at Avera.

First, you should know that he wants to stay in the ND, SD, MN area but RT jobs are few and far between up here. Sure, if we lived in California, Florida or Arizona he'd have job offers coming out his butthole. Anyway, I digress.

So it looks as though we'll probably be staying in Aberdeen for a few years. But as horrible as it seemes, it actually makes things a lot easier. I'll go to Northern because it just makes sense. I'll quit at Payless because it just makes sense (I haven't been able to talk myself into actually quitting, thinking that my next job would only last a few months and holy crap what a waste of time). Plus I think it will be better for Chris and me to stay here. We've got friends and family here so it won't be just us. Alone. All the time.

So as much as I hate Aberdeen I told Chris he has to take the job even though he's a giant sweetheart and wasn't going to take it just because I hate this town. So it's a good thing. I'll finish school and whatnot and Chris can get some more CT experience and we'll both be happier in the long run....I hope.

2007-05-14T21:20:00.000-05:00

Oh my gosh this was the longest weekend ever. Weddings, graduations, family, eating, cleaning, more eating, cooking, preparing, staying up late, taking care of people with mono, more cleaning, meeting new people, remembering names, laughing, did I mention cleaning?

I need a day off from my weekend off.

It's Over.

2007-05-11T00:13:00.000-05:00

So it's official. I need a new boyfriend. Christopher wants to name our future child Jamocha Taige, for a boy OF COURSE.

Help....me..........

2007-05-07T17:46:00.001-05:00

That’s the risk we take when we open our hearts, and the wider we open up, the greater the capacity for both joy and sorrow to enter.

Mom Blogs.

2007-04-26T22:04:00.000-05:00

So I have a confession. Recently, I have become completely and hopelessly addicted to mom blogs. I don't know why. So yeah. That's my post today.

Also, car shopping is worse than jean shopping because instead of realizing how fat you are, you realize how poor you are. Dangit.

Interview with the Vampire....er, me.

2007-04-24T18:41:00.000-05:00

Here is how the game is played:
Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me." I respond by asking you five personal questions so I can get to know you better. If I already know you well, expect the questions to be a little more intimate!
You then update your journal/bloggy thing/whatever with the answers to the questions. (No excuses; it's required.) You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

You have a pretty good memory most of the time, but if you were forced to forget all but one single memory, what memory would you want to keep and why?
The immediate answer that comes to mind is probably something that hasn't happened yet. As much as I've mostly enjoyed life so far, I really hope the best is yet to come and I guess if I'd have to forget every single memory but one I want to remember the best. Maybe my wedding or something momentous like that. Who knows.

What is the biggest lie you ever told and who did you tell it to?
I'd say the biggest lie wasn't a blatant lie, rather a lie of omission. Most of my friends didn't know that my parents started the process of getting a divorce the summer before my senior year. I was embarrassed about it and I don't really know why, so I just didn't tell people. I'm sure people knew more than I was letting on, but I dove into school and activities rather than facing what was going on at home. And my "lie" didn't just last through the remainder of high school, I think if you talked to most people I went to Concordia with they'd assume my parents were still married. It's just not something I like talking about so I avoided it at all costs, but I'm getting better about it now.

They say you learn something new every day. If it were possible for you to learn any one fact about anything or anyone, what fact would you want to learn and why? (It could be anything from an unknown historical fact to a secret that some one has never told.)
I think I'd like to learn how to make decisions. Anyone who knows me know that I don't like making decisions and it's not because I don't have an opinion, it's just that I'm so afraid of choosing the wrong choice. Even little things that don't matter, like what we should have for dinner. Then even when I do pick something I doubt myself the whole time, making excuses for how bad my choice was and such. So maybe in the end I could use a lesson in self confidence, but I guess I don't know how you could teach that.

If you could be famous for being the first to do any one thing, what thing would you want to have done?
Well, I think the thing that would make me the most famous would be curing cancer or AIDS...Something big. But what would I really want to be famous for? That's a little harder. Probably something funny like being the first woman to sing show tunes on the moon. I don't know...That's the first thing that comes to mind, we'll go with that.

What is the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you?
This is the hardest one. I've been so lucky to have people who love and support me that it's hard to pick just one. One that stands out the most though is my soon-to-be step dad, Tim. I hated him so much. He stole my mom. I was really angry and not a nice person around him. But he has shown me kindness in so many ways. He makes my mom so happy, happier than I've ever seen her. When I had to continue to pay rent for a house I wasn't living in, he was there to help me out. When I wanted to go visit my best friend for a week, he supported me when everyone else thought it'd be a waste of money and time. He makes damn good chili. Basically, he loves me even though I was a complete and total bitch to him and he hasn't brought the past up even once. He's a good guy.

Momma says life is like a box of chocolates. What do you think life is like?
I think life is like a puzzle. It starts off as just the edges and you have to work your way into it, try new things, turn things over and around, figure it out until it fits just right. Maybe some pieces are for a different puzzle all together so you just have to get rid of those ones, but in the end it's a beautiful picture. Everything fits in the end. If it doesn't fit, it's not the end.

'Bout Time...

2007-04-23T08:52:00.000-05:00

So my car is dead. Officially. There's a short somewhere that makes the battery drain in about 3 hours. It sucks major balls. So now I'm looking for a new car because I can't not have a car. My grandpa thinks I should just go for it and but a new car instead of a used one because I'd just be "buying someone else's problem" if I were to buy a used one. Now the problem is I need to find a better paying job to support a car payment and full coverage insurance. And I know it's kind of a dick move to start a new job when I know I'll most likely be moving in the next three months but I don't really have any other choice. And I think I've already found the car that I want.

It's so cute. I'm in love. And today I'm going to "quit" my job by letting my boss know I either need a raise or I need to start looking for a new job. Wish me luck!!!

Spelling Bee Champion of the Woooorld!

2007-04-14T17:57:00.000-05:00

Is Fergie trying to prove to the world that she is, in fact, not a ditsy pop star by spelling in EVERY SINGLE ONE OF HER SONGS!?!?!?!?
Just a question...

2007-04-13T17:25:00.001-05:00

Mika - Grace Kelly

2007-04-09T10:01:00.000-05:00

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!

Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want

2007-04-02T23:53:00.000-05:00

I think I need a sunrise...

Five Things

2007-03-29T17:47:00.000-05:00

Ok...So I'm gonna break the rules and not tag anyone else, mostly because Julie Anne already tagged all my blogger friends, but I'll play along anyway.

1. Chris and I are planning on moving out of Aberdeen together. Just the two of us. We don't know where we're going yet, and we don't know when. But I know that as much as I can't wait, I'm scared poopless. (That's right, I said poop) I know we're able to live together and not kill each other we've been living together for the duration of our relationship since we were roommies before we "hooked up" but it's way different moving to a new city, starting new jobs, and having it be just us. Scared. Poopless. But so excited to get the chance to start over with someone I love.

2. My mom is getting remarried on May 12. I used to hate her boyfriend. Really really hate him. And he's even admitted that he gave me plenty of reasons to hate him. But now he's changed a lot and I see how happy he makes my mom. She's happier now than I ever remember her being and I'm really excited for her.

3. My boyfriend is a better cook than I am. He'll be the one cooking dinner for the most part. Although I do have my staples, he pretty much kicks my ass.

4. I'm addicted to home improvement shows. Makeover shows in general, actually. Enough said.

Ok this is harder than I thought it would be. I'm starting to struggle for this fifth one....

5. Part of me wants to find something that I absolutely love doing and go with it. Another part wants to just pick a damn major and get it over with. There's a battle going on within me between the rational and emotional. I know I'll have to make a decision eventually, but it's not easy for me.

Question:

2007-03-29T14:13:00.000-05:00

Why is Rachael Ray single? She's cute, young, pretty famous, probably rich and SHE CAN COOK!!! Seriously, someone needs to get on that. Heck, I'd date her. Geez.

2007-03-26T14:42:00.000-05:00

Yup...I stole this too.

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Mmm Saturday.

2007-03-24T12:18:00.000-05:00

So apparently I'm bored with blogging, so I'm gonna do another one of these. Also I got my nose pierced! It hurt like a bitch. Just so you know....

Instructions: Look at the list of books below.
• Bold the ones you’ve read.
• Italicise the ones you want to
• Don't do anything to the ones that you aren’t interested in.

1. The Da Vinci Code (Dan Brown)
2. Pride and Prejudice (Jane Austen)
3. To Kill A Mockingbird (Harper Lee)
4. Gone With The Wind (Margaret Mitchell)
5. The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King (Tolkien)
6. The Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring (Tolkien)
7. The Lord of the Rings: Two Towers (Tolkien)
8. Anne of Green Gables (L.M. Montgomery)
9. Outlander (Diana Gabaldon)
10. A Fine Balance (Rohinton Mistry)
11. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Rowling)
12. Angels and Demons (Dan Brown)
13. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Rowling)
14. A Prayer for Owen Meany (John Irving)
15. Memoirs of a Geisha (Arthur Golden)
16. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone (Rowling)
17. Fall on Your Knees (Ann-Marie MacDonald)
18. The Stand (Stephen King)
19. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Rowling)
20. Jane Eyre (Charlotte Bronte)
21. The Hobbit (Tolkien)
22. The Catcher in the Rye (J.D. Salinger)
23. Little Women (Louisa May Alcott)
24. The Lovely Bones (Alice Sebold)
25. Life of Pi (Yann Martel)
26. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (Douglas Adams)
27. Wuthering Heights (Emily Bronte)
28. The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe (C. S. Lewis)
29. East of Eden (John Steinbeck)
30. Tuesdays with Morrie (Mitch Albom)
31. Dune (Frank Herbert)
32. The Notebook (Nicholas Sparks)
33. Atlas Shrugged (Ayn Rand)
34. 1984 (Orwell)
35. The Mists of Avalon (Marion Zimmer Bradley)
36. The Pillars of the Earth (Ken Follett)
37. The Power of One (Bryce Courtenay)
38. I Know This Much is True (Wally Lamb)
39. The Red Tent (Anita Diamant)
40. The Alchemist (Paulo Coelho)
41. The Clan of the Cave Bear (Jean M. Auel)
42. The Kite Runner (Khaled Hosseini)
43. Confessions of a Shopaholic (Sophie Kinsella)
44. The Five People You Meet In Heaven (Mitch Albom)
45. Bible
46. Anna Karenina (Tolstoy)
47. The Count of Monte Cristo (Alexandre Dumas)
48. Angela’s Ashes (Frank McCourt)
49. The Grapes of Wrath (John Steinbeck)
50. She’s Come Undone (Wally Lamb)
51. The Poisonwood Bible (Barbara Kingsolver)
52. A Tale of Two Cities (Dickens)
53. Ender’s Game (Orson Scott Card)
54. Great Expectations (Dickens)
55. The Great Gatsby (Fitzgerald)
56. The Stone Angel (Margaret Laurence)
57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (Rowling)
58. The Thorn Birds (Colleen McCullough)
59. The Handmaid’s Tale (Margaret Atwood)
60. The Time Traveller’s Wife (Audrew Niffenegger)
61. Crime and Punishment (Fyodor Dostoyevsky)
62. The Fountainhead (Ayn Rand)
63. War and Peace (Tolstoy)
64. Interview With The Vampire (Anne Rice)
65. Fifth Business (Robertson Davis)
66. One Hundred Years Of Solitude (Gabriel Garcia Marquez)
67. The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (Ann Brashares)
68. Catch-22 (Joseph Heller)
69. Les Miserables (Hugo)
70. The Little Prince (Antoine de Saint-Exupery)
71. Bridget Jones’ Diary (Fielding)
72. Love in the Time of Cholera (Marquez)
73. Shogun (James Clavell)
74. The English Patient (Michael Ondaatje)
75. The Secret Garden (Frances Hodgson Burnett)
76. The Summer Tree (Guy Gavriel Kay)
77. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn (Betty Smith)
78. The World According To Garp (John Irving)
79. The Diviners (Margaret Laurence)
80. Charlotte’s Web (E.B. White)
81. Not Wanted On The Voyage (Timothy Findley)
82. Of Mice And Men (Steinbeck)
83. Rebecca (Daphne DuMavrier)
84. Wizard’s First Rule (Terry Goodkind)
85. Emma (Jane Austen)
86. Watership Down (Richard Adams)
87. Brave New World (Aldous Huxley)
88. The Stone Diaries (Carol Shields)
89. Blindness (Jose Saramago)
90. Kane and Abel (Jeffrey Archer)
91. In The Skin Of A Lion (Ondaatje)
92. Lord of the Flies (Golding)
93. The Good Earth (Pearl S. Buck)
94. The Secret Life of Bees (Sue Monk Kidd)
95. The Bourne Identity (Robert Ludlum)
96. The Outsiders (S.E. Hinton)
97. White Oleander (Janet Fitch)
98. A Woman of Substance (Barbara Taylor Bradford)
99. The Celestine Prophecy (James Redfield)
100. Ulysses (James Joyce)

I'm kinda disappointed in how many of these I haven't read. I'd better get on that...

Three Things.

2007-03-20T18:42:00.000-05:00

Meh...I'm bored.

Three things that scare me:
1. Making decisions
2. Spiders
3. Hurting the people I love

Three people who make me laugh:
1. Every single one of my friends.
2. Christopher
3. Mary...my boss at Payless

Three things I love:
1. Reading
2. Movies
3. Too many people to include in my list...

Three things I hate:
1. Waiting
2. Being broke
3. Not knowing what to do with my liiiiiiife!!!!

Three things I don’t understand:
1. Wasting all of your money drinking
2. People who yell at me while I'm at work
3. My family

Three things on my desk:
1. I don't have a desk...
2.
3.

Three things I’m doing right now:
1. Watching Miami Ink
2. Trying to decide what to have for dinner
3. Thinking about getting a tattoo...As soon as I have my tax return!!!!!

Three things I want to do before I die:
1. Get married and have a family
2. Go to Europe ;)
3. Get my tattoo

Three things I can do:
1. Talk people into buying stuff.
2. Get Chris and/or Jesse to do whatever I want them to do...hehehe...
3. Make amazing chili.

Three things you should listen to:
1. Me.
2. Your heart.
3. "Hands Down" by Dashboard Confessional...Actually, anything by Dashboard is pretty much amazing.

Three things I’d like to learn:
1. Fluent French
2. To play the piano
3. To make decisions

Three People I'd like to have a conversation with:
1. Leonardo DiVinci
2. Chris Carrabba
3. The Beatles

Three TV shows/books I watched/read as a child:
1. The American Girl series...I even had the dolls, I was pretty cool.
2. Power Rangers. I have two little brothers and they out-voted me.
3. The Berenstain Bear Books

TGIF

2007-03-16T17:53:00.000-05:00

I stole this from Erik. He was right...it was fun. Happy Weekend!

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

What to do?

2007-03-15T09:19:00.000-05:00

Ok, I have the day off. And I don't know what to do with myself!!!! Jamie and Jesse are house-sitting for the rest of the week. Christopher is in the cities until Tuesday. And I'm already bored. And in the mood to shop. And I get paid today. SWEEEEET. But bad. Really bad. In other news, I have the hiccups. Thought you should know.

Dang it.

2007-03-11T10:11:00.000-05:00

Well. It's nice outside. And I love it. But now I have to get a tan. And get rid of this winter growth. Ugh. Fun times.

2007-03-05T14:00:00.000-06:00

Yeah. Don't even ask.

SNOW DAY!!!

2007-03-02T10:21:00.000-06:00

Here it goes....Again.

2007-02-27T19:50:00.000-06:00

Ok, so I figured out what's going on.
Lately I feel like I can't do anything right.
I quit school, I'm working at a lame job and I'm taking my anger out on pretty much everyone around me, especially the ones I care about the most.
I even tried baking the other day, which usually cheers me up because it's something that I've always been good at (Thanks Mom!)
But everything was going wrong.
I didn't have vanilla or tin foil and my mother (as much as I love her) told me the wrong amount of flour so it took me THREE times to get the damn thing right.
And I just cried.
A lot.
Somehow I ended up screwing up the thing that always makes me feel at least a little better.
I dread waking up every day because I feel like it's just a waste of yet another day.
I'm wasting my life.
Awesome feeling, let me tell you.
I don't know what I'm good at anymore.
I'm unmotivated.
I'm complaining.
I'm done.

Sucky.

2007-02-23T17:02:00.000-06:00

It's official. I hate my job.

Samson - Regina Spektor

2007-02-19T23:43:00.000-06:00

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads
But they're just old light, they're just old light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
Told me I was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
And kissed me 'til the mornin' light, the mornin' light
And he kissed me 'til the mornin' light

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonderbread and went right back to bed
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first

2007-02-17T11:02:00.000-06:00

I feel like a loser today. And I don't even want to explain it. I just feel like a loser.

Why am I awake?

2007-02-05T10:06:00.000-06:00

How can it be "amen" if "men" is plural and "a" suggests singular?

Raaaaandom.

2007-02-04T10:21:00.000-06:00

I just don't understand all the hubbub surrounding the SuperBowl. Sure, the commercials are funny and, yeah, Manning does have a pretty nice ass, but seriously people it's a game. Just one humble opinion.

Christopher went to Las Vegas Wednesday and just got home last night. He had a good time and, between you and me, wasn't sober til they got to the Minneapolis airport yesterday morning. Responsible huh? But, to his credit, they only had one night of fun. He was there for some rad tech conference and had to go to classes and fun stuff like that. What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas...Frankly, I don't even want to know.

Wouldn't it suck to get a papercut on your tongue? I think that would suck.

I went to Barnes and Noble Friday. Jamie and I took a day-trip to Sioux Falls. I spent too much money. That tends to happen when the two of us shop together. Oh well. But, as I was saying, I went to B&N and this book that I've been wanting was ON SALE!!!! Woot. It's really good so far. It's called Devil in the Details and it's about this girl who has a religious form of OCD called Scrupulosity. It's kinda sad and really funny and I'm glad I finally bought it. Actually, I'm going to take it to work with me today. Don't tell my boss, it's a secret!

Wow. If you actually made it through that endless rant, congratulations! You're prize is...Realizing what a complete waste of time it was!!!!!!

Happy SuperBowl Sunday kids.

I'm the map!!

2007-01-28T11:04:00.000-06:00

So Dora was in the mall yesterday. I haven't seen that many people in the mall EVER. The line went from one end all the way to the other then wrapped around a little. It was insane. Then they made an announcement around 1:30 that Dora would be leaving at 2 and all hell broke loose. There was this couple that I talked to who drove 2 hours so their kids could meet Dora then they were told to just get out of line because they wouldn't be able to see her. I'd be pissed. Then again, I wouldn't drive 2 hours to see some person in a stupid costume. Anyway, that's my story.

Story Award!!!

2007-01-20T22:14:00.000-06:00

So Chris ended up stealing my thunder Thursday night and he cooked instead. But I made some awesome chili tonight, so that totally made up for it. I was dubbed the chili master. I rock. I'll make some for you sometime...Oh! And cornbread too. Um, I think that's it for now.

Hmmm...

2007-01-18T13:07:00.000-06:00

I spent 2 hours in Target yesterday. I don't know why.

But I bought Accepted. It's a funny movie.
That's all though. I didn't even have a reason to be there. I just was.

In other news, I'm making dinner tonight and if you know me at all you know that I don't really cook. Wish me luck. It should be good. And also Grey's Anatomy is on tonight. I'm excited. I actually get to watch it tonight instead of having to watch it online which sucks. That's it for now.

2007-01-04T19:33:00.000-06:00

My least favorite thing of 2007 thus far:
Final Fantasy 12. Grr.

What fun it is to ride and sing!

2006-12-19T16:04:00.000-06:00

So today is officially the start of Christmas for our "family." We've got the tree up, the Christmas presents wrapped, the stockings stuffed...The only thing left to do is dig in! It's pathetic. We sat here for nearly an hour last week trying to find a night when all four of us would actually be in the apartment at the same time for more than an hour. And tonight is that night. WOOOOOHOOOOO!!!! Anyhow, I'm really excited. After we open gifts, we're gonna get hot chocolate and drive around looking at lights around town.

Should be a good time.

Just thought you all ought to know.

Awkward.........

Fear is the heart of love

2006-12-12T22:33:00.000-06:00

Do you ever forget how much you like a band? I do sometimes because I'm cool like that. Well, I'd just like to thank Elycia for reminding me how wonderful Death Cab for Cutie really is.

I Will Follow You Into the Dark by Death Cab for Cutie

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my toungue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

2006-12-06T21:58:00.000-06:00

I love the there's-snow-in-my-eyelashes kind of snow like it snowed today.
mmmmmmmhmmmmmmmmmm

It's all about me.

2006-11-30T22:22:00.000-06:00

I'm sleepy.
I'm watching Futurama.
I'm talking to Erik.
I'm watching Jesse and Jamie put up Christmas lights.
I'm thirsty.
I'm jealous that there's no snow here.
I'm cold.
But my feet are hot.
I'm excited for Christmas.
I need to shop.
I'm bad at presents.
I don't know what to get you.
Any of you.
I still haven't gotten my tattoo because the guy I want to do it is super busy.
I don't know why I'm writing this.
I'm kinda bored.
I'm done.

2006-11-27T21:50:00.000-06:00

Sigh. Big old sigh. Sigh that I haven't sighed in far too long. Good sigh. Happy sigh. Content sigh. Comfortable sigh. Excited sigh. Weird sigh. Nervous sigh. But in the end all it is is a sigh. A big old sigh. Ok, so maybe it's a sigh and a smile.

Tattoo or Not-too?

2006-11-16T00:17:00.000-06:00

Tattoo idea. Black and grey. No color. Between my shoulder blades. Yay or nay?

Predictions.

2006-11-14T11:48:00.000-06:00

I hate it when you're right.

Calling You

2006-11-07T00:32:00.000-06:00

by Blue October

There's something I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you
You'll never take that away
And if I've said it a hundred times before
Expect a thousand more
You'll never take that away

So expect me to be
Calling you to see
If you're okay when I'm not around
Asking "if you love me"
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile?
To make us smile

I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me

I thought that the world had lost it's sway
It's so hard sometimes
Then I fell in love with you
Then came you
And you took that away
It's not so difficult
The world is not so difficult
You take away the old
Show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you
So while I'm on this phone
A hundred miles from home
I'll take the words you gave me and send them back to you

I only want to see
If you're okay when I'm not around
Asking "if you love me"
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile?
To make us smile

I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me

Question:

2006-11-04T01:18:00.000-06:00

What are you begging for?

2006-10-29T21:39:00.000-06:00

Sometimes my everything is tired. And I just want to lay down with my Winnie the Pooh and my favorite blanket and just be there. And not think. And not move. And just be.

Because I'm tired.

Oops.

2006-10-26T19:54:00.000-05:00

Shit.

That wasn't supposed to happen.

2006-10-23T21:51:00.000-05:00

There was something I was gonna say. But I forgot. So nevermind.

2006-10-17T21:39:00.000-05:00

Si j'étais un fantôme, je m'assiérais sur votre table de café et chanterais des chansons des musicaux. Et vous l'aimeriez.

2006-10-15T00:57:00.000-05:00

Damn it.

I hate being confused.

Because it happens all the time.

Maybe I'll just become a nun.

2006-10-12T18:35:00.000-05:00

I would just like you to know that my birthday is in 12 days.

In case you forgot.

Current Mood:

2006-10-05T14:26:00.000-05:00

Mahna mahna
(ba dee bedebe)
mahna mahna
(ba debe dee)
mahna mahna
(ba dee bedebe badebe badebe dee dee de-de de-de-de)

(repeats)

mah mama na mahna mah namwomp mwomp
ma mo mo mana mo
mahna mahna
(ba dee bedebe)

Trust me, it's a good thing.

IMPORTANT NOTICE!

2006-10-03T17:53:00.000-05:00

My lotion smells like pencil shavings.

Please continue whatever you were doing.

Cynical Thought du Jour...

2006-09-29T10:13:00.000-05:00

It' s a funny thing, you know, life...Just when I thought I was starting to figure things out, i realize that I really know nothing and am, in fact, still at square one.

Welcome to adulthood. Turn back while you still can.

She Has Returned!

2006-09-28T10:24:00.000-05:00

So it's been a while kids! But I've been very busy doing nothing. Well, it seems like nothing anyway but mostly it's just normal non-student kinds of things. Like working 40 hours a week. And moving in with some friends. And trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my seemingly pathetic life.

So far here are my options:
Stay in Aberdeen and go to PC or Northern and major in communication type things.
Go to massage school.
Work at Payless for the rest of my life.

The first two options are the two that I'd rather pursue, but I suppose if push comes to shove I could be a Payless employee forever and ever amen. And I don't really know which of the other two I want more. I don't want to stay in Aberdeen forever and it seems like picking option one would doom me to a small town existance for the rest of my life. But I have friends and a job and family here. And if I went to massage school I'd have to move out on my own for the very first time. No dorms, no family a short drive away, no friends, no furniture. But here's the thing, whenever people try to talk me out of massage school I get defensive. And when they try to talk me out of going to NSU or PC, I'm ok with that idea. So is that saying something important or am I just reading too much into it? I DUNNO!!!!!

Basically the point of this post is to say that I'm sorry I've been gone for a while and also that I'm terrible at making decisions. I can't even decide what to have for lunch, how do you expect me to decide what I want to do for the rest of my life? Seriously.

2006-09-06T21:58:00.000-05:00

I'm very confused right now. And I'm pretty sure it's just because I over analyze everything.

But I miss you. And you. And you.

But I'm tired of missing people. How do you make that feeling stop?

2006-09-04T11:11:00.000-05:00

I grasp and hold on tight, for if I let go I fear being lonely when I get old. Tonight I will let my hands soak into your skin. Because I know if I let you go. You may be gone for good.

Blue October, 18th Floor Balcony

I close my eyes and I smile
Knowing that everything is alright
To the core
Close that door
Is this happening?
My breathe is on your hair
I'm unaware
That you opened the blinds and let the city in
God, you held my hand
As we stand
Taking in everything.

And I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep

But Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony...
We're both flying away.

We talked about mom's and dad's
About family's pasts
Getting to know where we came from
Our hearts were on display
For all to see
I can't believe this is happening.
I raised my hand as if to show you I was yours
That I was so yours for the taking
I'm still so your for the taking
Thats when I felt the wind pick up
I grabbed the rail while choking up
These words to say and then you kissed me...
I knew from the start
So my arms are open wide
And your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep

But here we are
On this 18th floor balcony...

I knew from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep

Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony...
We're both flying away.

And I'll try to sleep
To keep you in my dreams
So I can bring you home with me
And I'll try to sleep
And when I do I'll keep you in my...dreams

I knew it from the start
My arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
We're not going to sleep
But here we are
On this 18th floor balcony...we're both..
Flying away

2006-08-28T19:40:00.000-05:00

Excerpt from Nick Hornby's A Long Way Down:

We all spend so much time not saying what we want, because we know we can't have it. And because it sounds ungracious, or ungrateful, or disloyal, or childish, or banal. Or because we're so desperate to pretend that things are OK, really, that confessing to ourselves they're not looks like a bad move. Go on, say what you want. Maybe not out loud, if it's going to get you in trouble: "I wish I'd never married him." "I wish she was still alive." "I wish I'd never had kids with her." "I wish I had a whole shitload of money." "I wish all the Albanians would go back to fucking Albania." Whatever it is, say it to yourself. The truth will set you free. Either that or it'll get you a punch in the nose. Surviving in whatever life you're living means lying, and lying corrodes the soul, so take a break from the lies for just one minute.

Random Things That Have Happened Lately

2006-08-26T00:16:00.000-05:00

*I got some guy's number...Found it on the back of my receipt from when I was parked in the Sioux Falls airport. Pretty much made my day.
*Got offered 2 jobs in one day, one at CoffeeSmith, another at Maurices.
*I'm done working at the daycare FINALLY.
*I got a new skirt. Woot.
*I'm finally starting to figure out what I'm doing for school. I have a few options now and I've talked to some admissions people and things are moving along. Now I just have to make a few more decisions, but I don't want people to think I'm making these decisions for the wrong choices. Know what I mean?
*I'm excited about those decisions.
*My tan is already going away.
*I'm starting to get a little sad that I'm not going back to Concordia this year, just because there are some people that I'll miss a lot.
*I never sleep anymore.
*I'm happier now than I've been in a long time, but I can't stop wondering if maybe it'll be gone soon. I'm trying not to think about it though.
*I need to repaint my toenails.

Ok....I think that's about it.