Commenting Therapy
I was posting a comment on Kayla's blog and I realized that all of my friends needed to hear, or read, what I was writing. Kayla's post was about jealousy and the things it can do to ruin relationships. While reading it, I realized that I've been incredibly selfish and jealous lately. I don't need to be number one in everyone's lives. As long as I am a number and get my share of each of you, that's all I need to make my life perfect. I don't know why I keep realizing these things over and over again, but hopefully one of these times it will sink in. I'm terribly sorry if my jealousy and selfishness over the past few weeks has had an effect on any of you and I want you to know that I realize my faults, now I just need to make them work for me in a positive way. Anyway, this is what I wrote and I just thought you all should see it....
"You're so right! Jealousy is a terrible thing and has the ability to tear a friendship apart. I'm not gonna lie, I've been a horribly jealous person lately, not to mention selfish and self-serving. I keep realizing these things about my self but for some reason I just can't change it! What I really need is some good friends to call me on it! I know I'm doing it, but on some level I think for some reason that people will have pity on me. That's no good. Jealousy is just something I have to deal with and realize that I'm doing, and more than that, I have to stop myself from doing it. I think I'm going to post this on my blog, because you helped me realize that what I'm doing isn't fair to myself or the people I love. Thank you Kayla! I need you and all my other friends more than I ever thought I would! I just hope that I can be there for you just as much, whether it's a shoulder to cry on, someone to distract you from the shit we go through in life, or maybe even to help you realize something about yourself. Thanks again! And happy birthday again!See you in a few days!!!"
I just want to give a special thanks to Kayla and Erik. Without the both of you, I would be an insanely jealous, mean, insecure, selfish person and never, ever realize it. Knowing you has made me a much better, much happier person and I could never thank you enough or tell you how much you mean to me. I can't wait to be with you guys again!
"You're so right! Jealousy is a terrible thing and has the ability to tear a friendship apart. I'm not gonna lie, I've been a horribly jealous person lately, not to mention selfish and self-serving. I keep realizing these things about my self but for some reason I just can't change it! What I really need is some good friends to call me on it! I know I'm doing it, but on some level I think for some reason that people will have pity on me. That's no good. Jealousy is just something I have to deal with and realize that I'm doing, and more than that, I have to stop myself from doing it. I think I'm going to post this on my blog, because you helped me realize that what I'm doing isn't fair to myself or the people I love. Thank you Kayla! I need you and all my other friends more than I ever thought I would! I just hope that I can be there for you just as much, whether it's a shoulder to cry on, someone to distract you from the shit we go through in life, or maybe even to help you realize something about yourself. Thanks again! And happy birthday again!See you in a few days!!!"
I just want to give a special thanks to Kayla and Erik. Without the both of you, I would be an insanely jealous, mean, insecure, selfish person and never, ever realize it. Knowing you has made me a much better, much happier person and I could never thank you enough or tell you how much you mean to me. I can't wait to be with you guys again!
posted by Kyssa at 4/25/2005 02:00:00 PM
1 Comments:
I really appreciate people who can be honest with themselves, I'll be the first to admit I'm a hypocrite. I think everyone is in one way or another, but personally I know exactly what I need to work on, there is always something.
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