Today has been, to say the least, interesting. After an interesting night, I had to get up at 9 and go to the president's inaguration. We didn't have to go I guess, but the girls and I decided we were going to get dressed up then go the the banquet/luncheon thing afterwards. They had a lot of Norweigan food. Good stuff. I felt fat. Then tonight we had an interesting time un-lofting beds on our floor. They're picking up our lofts on Monday already. Weird, huh? It seems like we just moved in here and now we're leaving again. On the other hand, in some respects this year went soooo slowly!
Anywho...Have you ever heard of seasonal depression? Well, usually it happens to people in the winter. But I think it can happen in the spring too. Now, I'm not saying that I'm depressed or something, but I think that spring is a very sad season if you're not in love. If you don't believe me try spending spring on a college campus. Everyone is walking on clouds, holding hands...Being in love. It's a sad day when everyone around you seems to have everything going for them and it feels like every time I try to do something, I fail miserably. I think about my year here at Concordia, and though I haven't by any means failed, I think I could have done a lot more in my time here. I definately have not done my best work here. I look at the people around me who graduated first or second in their class and feel like maybe I don't belong here. Maybe I should be going somewhere else. Or maybe college just isn't for me. Now, you may be asking yourself how I went from "love sucks" to "school sucks" and the answer is: I have no idea.
Lately I haven't been sleeping well. It really sucks. A few nights ago I even took some medicine to help me sleep, something I had never done before. It's odd...Throughout most of the year, I had a terrible time sleeping. Then around the time of spring break or maybe a few weeks before, I started sleeping really well. Now for the past few weeks I can't sleep again. I seriously think there might be something wrong with me, whether it's mental or physical. There's just something that doesn't feel right lately. Who knows. The only thing I'm sure about lately is that I can't wait to come home! I know, I know, only one week left here. But I can't help wanting to be home. I've been feeling kind of out of the loop lately and I just want to be with my friends again. But I'm going to make the best out of my last week here and have fun with my super friends that I've made over the past year.
Hmm...How's that for a random post?
Anywho...Have you ever heard of seasonal depression? Well, usually it happens to people in the winter. But I think it can happen in the spring too. Now, I'm not saying that I'm depressed or something, but I think that spring is a very sad season if you're not in love. If you don't believe me try spending spring on a college campus. Everyone is walking on clouds, holding hands...Being in love. It's a sad day when everyone around you seems to have everything going for them and it feels like every time I try to do something, I fail miserably. I think about my year here at Concordia, and though I haven't by any means failed, I think I could have done a lot more in my time here. I definately have not done my best work here. I look at the people around me who graduated first or second in their class and feel like maybe I don't belong here. Maybe I should be going somewhere else. Or maybe college just isn't for me. Now, you may be asking yourself how I went from "love sucks" to "school sucks" and the answer is: I have no idea.
Lately I haven't been sleeping well. It really sucks. A few nights ago I even took some medicine to help me sleep, something I had never done before. It's odd...Throughout most of the year, I had a terrible time sleeping. Then around the time of spring break or maybe a few weeks before, I started sleeping really well. Now for the past few weeks I can't sleep again. I seriously think there might be something wrong with me, whether it's mental or physical. There's just something that doesn't feel right lately. Who knows. The only thing I'm sure about lately is that I can't wait to come home! I know, I know, only one week left here. But I can't help wanting to be home. I've been feeling kind of out of the loop lately and I just want to be with my friends again. But I'm going to make the best out of my last week here and have fun with my super friends that I've made over the past year.
Hmm...How's that for a random post?
posted by Kyssa at 4/24/2005 02:32:00 AM
3 Comments:
Spring depression is definitly a YEs to be present. I know how that goes. I always get really gloomy during spring. It sucks because then the teachers are like "here yea go! Homework out of you ears" You feel so trapped and pressured and then you have no one to really turn to and it all just falls apart. Yep, happens to me every year. Sad, isn't it. By the way, I don't think I have ever had Norweigan food. MMM...might have to find me some! ;) Don't worry though, you have a few more days, and then you back in aberdaber. I'd think that to be a good thing. It's one for me. As far as the sleeping aspect, try having something warm before bed. Like tea or something. That's what I do. Green tea always puts me in the sleeping mood. Another would be trying to eat a banana or peanut butter a couple hours before bed. I know that sounds completely weird, but it works. Trust me. THen of course just relax and drown out the world. I hope you start sleeping better because I know what it's like not to get any sleep. Then again, so does the rest of the world. :)
Always~
Golly gee whiz, our president got inaugurated too. That's just krazie. I didn't have to go either, but I had nothing else to do, my classes (well most) were canceled for last Monday. Un-lofting ur beds, how sad. Thats just krazie dude. I agree, it definitely seems like we just began college, not one year down at hopefully only 3 more to go ya know? Yet at some parts it went like a grandma, so damn slow. Seasonal depression, oh yeh.... totally. It sux when everybody is "in love" but you and all that other jazzzz. Thats aiight tho. Someday our prinze will come like Vin Diesel or someone hot and buff like that. Yeh end of the year is fun yet sad all in one. Its krazie how that all works. Yes summer will be fun, can't wait until u get into town. it'll be awesome possum. I can't wait to go home either. just playin'. It'll be fun, this summer I think will be the best yet. I just have a feeling deep down thats starts from the inside of toes and is working its way up just about to explode. woohoo. trust me, if u feel out of the looop, u don't need to be, u haven't missed much, just the occasional movie, which isn't anything new or specially really, just the same thing we did ALL last summer. If all else fails, u'll feel "in" again when u come home. There really is no place like home................
Wherever you go, there you are...Genius! I like it! (George Castanza's dad's voice)
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