Feeling Better.
So yesterday I took a mini-vacation from life. I sat at home reading, spending time with my family (something I haven't done in a long time) and went to church. I know most of you that read this on a regular basis aren't regular church goers, so you might not understand what I mean when I say what I'm about to say. I'm Kyssa Sitter and I used to be a bible humper. I went to a private school, taught Sunday school and VBS and volunteered at my church, and friends' churches regularly. Somewhere along the line though, I realized that maybe this "organized" religion wasn't the right thing for me. Then I just lost touch with God. But yesterday I realized that maybe I should give God a try again. My life hasn't been wonderful by any means, but it could be worse. And what's wrong with being a Christian? If there is no God, what did I lose? Now, don't take me wrong, I'm not going to start going to church 3 times a week, as a matter of fact I probably won't go to church any more often than I normally do because organized religion isn't what I'm looking for, I already have a support system (that's you guys, by the way...) I'm not going to try to convert you all, and I'm definately not going to preach to you cause that would be annoying, besides I probably don't really know what I'm talking about half the time. I'm not going to stop swearing, staying out late, I'm not going to go to Bible study...Basically, I just want to figure out where God fits in my life...If He fits at all. Some of you might not understand this, but I hope you respect me enough to not judge me for it. You can ask me questions, I probably won't have answers. But hopefully, I can change something in my life through this, even if God isn't the direct answer. Maybe you don't understand what I'm saying...If not I'll try to explain it better, but I don't think I should have to make excuses about this. The end.
On to something different. It's amazing how talking to someone for 15 minutes can make things feel soooo much better. I really understand wanting some time alone and there is nothing wrong with that. So if you call me and I don't answer my phone, don't take it personally...That's definately something I need to work on too. I think before I start helping others with their problems I need to figure out some stuff in my life. It'll make things so much better! And, just so you know, I might be taking a break from the large group stuff for a while. I'm kinda burnt out on that already. But don't give up on me yet! If something is going on, still give me a call, but don't be offended if I don't want to go, and I'll work on the same thing with you guys. *sigh* I feel better...
On to something different. It's amazing how talking to someone for 15 minutes can make things feel soooo much better. I really understand wanting some time alone and there is nothing wrong with that. So if you call me and I don't answer my phone, don't take it personally...That's definately something I need to work on too. I think before I start helping others with their problems I need to figure out some stuff in my life. It'll make things so much better! And, just so you know, I might be taking a break from the large group stuff for a while. I'm kinda burnt out on that already. But don't give up on me yet! If something is going on, still give me a call, but don't be offended if I don't want to go, and I'll work on the same thing with you guys. *sigh* I feel better...
posted by Kyssa at 5/23/2005 01:31:00 PM
1 Comments:
Good for mini-vacations! I heart those. And I totally support your church going. If you feel like God is an important thing (or a possibly missing thing) in your life, you should totally explore that. Whether it be by organized religion or not. I say kudos to you. It's an important thing to have a handle on. Otherwise you get confused and wonder how to handle your religious feelings. So I think it's a good thing. Good for you! But you totally better not be preachy. I will slap you hun! No, i'm j/k. But I think everyone has to find their own happiness. Although if you don't answer the phone, you're going to get silly voicemails from me. Although those rock cuz I rock. :) But you better hang out with lots of people before my bday because I have a good cake idea :) But I do understand keeping it small. Sometimes I just can't do the group thing...so if you want to hang out, you and me, we could totally do that! Or if you don't want to hang out with me, but with someone else, that's totally cool to me too :) Later gator, good for you finding out what you need to be happy!
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