Lately...

If you've spent any time with me recently, you've probably noticed that I haven't been quite up to normal. I've been under some unfamiliar stress lately and have been taking it out on all the wrong people. You know who you are and it's unfair of me to treat you the way I have been. I really am trying to feel better, but once I get into one of those moods I don't want help, I just want to be angry. We all have our moments, mine just seems to be lasting longer than it should. I realize that I'm being a bitch, even when I'm doing it, not just after the fact. I'm so excited to be home for the summer...I'm just having trouble letting myself enjoy it. I can say "Give me time" til I'm blue in the face, but that doesn't excuse the way I've been acting. I can apologize as much as I want but I can't expect you to forgive my behavior until I change, but I want you to know that I am trying. And I guess I can say I'm trying, but I guess that won't matter until you see a difference.