Simultaneous Thoughts

Are you ashamed of me?
Breathe....Just breathe.
Should I write what I'm really thinking?
Will you judge me?
You know me too well.
I'm scared you're going to hurt me again. To hurt me more.
Fighting the sadness.
I've resolved to be happy. That's how it's going to be.
There's so much you know that I've never told anyone else.
Why was I so stupid to open up?
To get attatched.
Think of all the wonderful things I've got.
Stop beating yourself up for things you cannot change.
The past is over, it cannot change.
Go to sleep.
Rest your eyes.
My sweet angel.
Don't be ashamed.
Why do we hurt those we love the most?
An evil curse.
My love is a plague.
Eating and corrupting those it touches.
Eating and corrupting me.