Bottled Up Insecurities...
Most of the time I'm happy with whatever it is that I've become. Most of the time I fall asleep happy. But sometimes I wonder what's wrong with me. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep. I try telling myself that I'm being stupid but all the thoughts in my head tell me that I'm just not good enough. I'm not skinny enough. I'm not funny enough. I'm too loud. I have too many zits. I'm not smart enough. I don't have any goals in life. I'm just not the right girl. I drink too much pop. I have bad hair. I don't "party" enough. I don't wear the right clothes. And half of the things that I worry about, I don't even CARE about! I don't want to go get wasted every night. I don't need to wear the right clothes. I think I'm funny...Sometimes. I like pop. I don't need to have goals yet, because I'm (for the most part) having fun with what I'm doing right now and I'm not ready to grow up yet. I can find so much fault in myself, looking at me from someone else's point of view. I don't know why I let it bother me so much sometimes. It's stupid. It's immature. I realize that. But I can't help wondering why nobody notices me.
posted by Kyssa at 11/20/2005 01:17:00 PM
5 Comments:
join the club.. u can be VP
One thing that sucks the most about being a girl is the fact that we are GREAT at having insecurities. We are great at placing ourselves in doubt. I hate it actually. I wish I could just be like, "This is me. You don't like it too bad." But most of the time, I'm my own worst enemy....
and PMSing just sucks!
It's not only the girls that criticize themselves you know. Guys do it too, we just don't show our emotions as much. Gotta be a "big tough man" you know. You always are your worst critic though and it's rare that people think as badly as you think of yourself. It means your human and it means you're a good person to want to make yourself better, even if you don't really need to.
You're cool. And you party way more than I do. You have tons of pictures on facebook and lots of friends and people love you. You beat me!
you did it again, CREEPY! but everyone feels that way i guess, just remember that we love you... i only dream of being as cool, as funny, and as smart as you! muah!
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