Rar.

I really have nothing to say this time. Nothing at all. Except, maybe that's a lie. I suppose there's always something to say. Sometimes I just feel like I NEED to write something. Is that weird? Nah. You know really is weird? How someone can make you really happy or really sad. Why do some people have that kind of power? It's odd. Sometimes I can be wrapped around their finger and other times I want to stick that same finger into their eyeball. It's kinda sick. Or maybe that's not so weird? Do you ever feel that way? What does it even mean? Why does that happen? It's like a love hate relationship. No, it's not like a love hate relationship...It IS a love hate relationship. And I wish I understood. Why can they make you smile and cry? Why can they make you feel like the top of the world and the scummiest of scum? Why can you feel ignored then all of a sudden the center of their universe?????? I don't really know where that came from. Just a random thought. A thought to ponder.

I think it feels really good to write before I go to bed. Not that I'm planning on sleeping any time soon...Who knows. The way I've been feeling lately I really should go to sleep. I've been having really bad headaches lately. I'm pretty sure they're tension headaches because I got them a lot last year too. So I took Tylenol, Advil, Excedrin...Lots of pills. Pretty sure that I took a liiiittle too much because now it would take about 9 pills to get rid of the smallest of headaches. So then I went to the health center and they gave me a prescription that would have made a horse sleep. Therefore my studies definitely came in second place to sleeping. I could barely keep my eyes open. So I don't want to do that again because I have to keep up with my studying so I keep getting good grades so I can actually do something with my life. Anyway, that was me telling you that I've been living with terrible headaches for the past two months and I'm sick of it. But hopefully all I need is a little break and things will feel better. *cross your fingers!*

Another thing I've been thinking about lately...I really want to get eye surgery. I've been wearing corrective lenses since I was about 7. Sucky. And I also think that the fact that I have such terrible vision might be have something to do with my headaches...But maybe I'm just looking for an excuse. That's probably it...I like making excuses. It's just something I do. But my physics prof was telling us about when she had laser eye surgery and she said she's really happy with it now, but when she had it done her cornea was wrinkled up when they finished so they had to go in and correct it. When they did that, she had developed a resistance to the anethsetic and was screaming in pain while they corrected her eye. So that doesn't sound fun at all. Plus you can see everything while they're doing it. And that would be scary. But worth it I think. Then I'd be able to wake up in the morning and be able to see. That would be wonderful.

It's Thanksgiving this Thursday. Pretty sure that I'm not going to eat anything between now and then. I'm going to eat sooo much delicious food. I'm freaking psyched.

I'm prettty sure it's time for bed. I just said "psyched" and that frightens me a little.

It's funny that I started this post off with "I really have nothing to say this time." Obviously I was lying.