The Most Wonderful Time

Finals are approaching. Finals of course, mean Christmas. And as the season of love and cheer surrounds us on these cold, December nights, it's hard not to think about those we love. And thinking about those we hold near and dear, of course, brings feelings of longing for the days we've left behind. I've probably spent too much time lately thinking about the past and future, when my thoughts should be concentrated on the here and now so I'm just going to put it all out there...
I miss the days of staying up all night just being together. I miss talking about everything and nothing. I miss the stupid jokes. I miss the games we played. I miss the walks we took. I miss the summers we had. I miss the classes we survived. I miss the parties we went to. I miss having a best friend. I miss being able to tell someone everything without being afraid that they might tell someone else. I miss a lot of things.
I can't even name the things I'm looking forward to. I feel like there's so much left for me to do in the world. So many places to go to. So many people to meet. So much love to gain. To see your shining faces, pink from excitement and cold. The hugs I need right now will have to wait.
So many things have changed since last Christmas. I feel like I've grown up so much in the past year, yet somehow regressing back to the childhood I never really had. My family is different. My friends are different. My whole life is different. Everything has changed. So many people say "forever" when they really mean "for now." So does forever exist? For now, I'm going to say no and just look forward to tomorrow. Forever can wait.