Here it goes....Again.
Ok, so I figured out what's going on.
Lately I feel like I can't do anything right.
I quit school, I'm working at a lame job and I'm taking my anger out on pretty much everyone around me, especially the ones I care about the most.
I even tried baking the other day, which usually cheers me up because it's something that I've always been good at (Thanks Mom!)
But everything was going wrong.
I didn't have vanilla or tin foil and my mother (as much as I love her) told me the wrong amount of flour so it took me THREE times to get the damn thing right.
And I just cried.
A lot.
Somehow I ended up screwing up the thing that always makes me feel at least a little better.
I dread waking up every day because I feel like it's just a waste of yet another day.
I'm wasting my life.
Awesome feeling, let me tell you.
I don't know what I'm good at anymore.
I'm unmotivated.
I'm complaining.
I'm done.
Lately I feel like I can't do anything right.
I quit school, I'm working at a lame job and I'm taking my anger out on pretty much everyone around me, especially the ones I care about the most.
I even tried baking the other day, which usually cheers me up because it's something that I've always been good at (Thanks Mom!)
But everything was going wrong.
I didn't have vanilla or tin foil and my mother (as much as I love her) told me the wrong amount of flour so it took me THREE times to get the damn thing right.
And I just cried.
A lot.
Somehow I ended up screwing up the thing that always makes me feel at least a little better.
I dread waking up every day because I feel like it's just a waste of yet another day.
I'm wasting my life.
Awesome feeling, let me tell you.
I don't know what I'm good at anymore.
I'm unmotivated.
I'm complaining.
I'm done.
Labels: confessions
posted by Kyssa at 2/27/2007 07:50:00 PM
3 Comments:
Ok missie. First off. You should be happy! Know why? Because I love you! but that's not the only reason, because there are lots of people that love you. I can name like 50 off the top of my head.
I don't want you to think that you're life sucks! It could be worse...so this is Proctor Julie Talking: (i'm going to be the RA for my hall next year!! Maybe)
Keep that chin up up up...and remember, Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swim, swim, swim! and things will come all together. In the darkest hours, our greatest strengths show through. Just keep trying, keeping looking, and follow that good old two'sense...
Love you babe! Call me if you need me! I"m here!
Don't worry, I sometimes think like that too for a while and yeah it sucks but it goes away. Just remember, I quit school too and I've hated pretty much all my jobs and I really really suck at cooking but it all gets better eventually. Cheer up, cause you're way cuter when you smile and try to be patient. Things really will get better, trust me, I know everything! :)
They're right. And once you find something you like doing, you'll be happy as a clam. This is a horrible time of year for everyone, so just hold on. You could open a coffee shop! j/k. I heart you and might be home for a little while at break, so I'll call you. But seriously, what were you trying to bake?
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